the new norm

i have not written on here for a long time, because i had no idea what to say.

time has passed and now i think i can talk about it.

many of you already know this. in march, jamison sexually abused his little brother, whitman. this is such a long story, so i will just tell you the end, or rather, where we are at right now.

jamison was removed from our home for over three weeks, but less than a month after we contacted our local police department about what had happened. he is back in our home now, but there is a court case against him. our county attorney's office is pressing criminal sexual misconduct charges of the first degree against jamison.

jamison's lawyer has asked for a test to determine his "competency" in being able to be a part of his own defence. we just went in for that test this week and are waiting to find out the results.

our lives have truly been turned upside down by all that has gone on in the past four months. emotionally it is too difficult to explain.

whitman is doing REALLY, really well which is absolutely the saving grace in all of this. he has just done so great with all of the testing and interviews he has had to go through. his sweet little spirit is strong and so far, seems unaffected by what has happened to him.

jamison has also been through a lot. a whole lot. he is doing as well as can be expected, i think. he does not begin to understand the depth of what he has done or what this is doing to our family. this is probably a good thing for his fragile set of circumstances. he is under a new set of strict, court-ordered rules. our whole house is. he was going to go to a super cool camp this summer, but now will not be able to do that, and he is really sad about it.

scott and i are emotionally completely spent. i'm sure i will write more about my inner demons soon, buit suffice it to say, i am wrestling with a whole lot of 'em.

life does indeed go on, however. elliott is leaving for a baseball tournament this weekend. holden and elliott are going to summer camp this year for the first time ever. they are both excited! holden, who has struggled very hard in school his whole life so far, just completed second grade ABOVE grade level in reading. he is a fantastic writer and i'm SO happy for him and proud of him for how far he's come!! YEA, holden......seriously this is a big deal for him :)

our nephew is living with us and so is one of scott's old friends from elementary/junior high. our house is still so busy and loud. i am ever thankful for fisher and quiet moments with him when he snuggles with me and tells me that he loves me.

so that's the update for now. prayers are needed and so appreciated as always. when we know more about our next court hearing (next week) i will let you know.