Well, here they are. all six of them. they feed off each other like sharks in a pool full of chum. things have been going really well for over a week now. jamison is softening his heart in a new way, and he is opening up like the most fragile of little flowers. i feel like his trust is so delicate.
he is a sexist young man, firmly insisting that women can't be doctors, and that only men can drink beer. he was offended at the way my friend, julieann was sitting on the couch, and tried to get her to cross her legs in a manner he deemed more befitting a lady. he wears rollerblades around the house with a neon green cape around his neck.
my heart is also softening to him. i have been very actively pursuing changing MY attitude and MY expectations, as that is all i can control. i have been thinking a great deal about arranged marriages, and how love can grow, slowly, if nurtured between two virtual strangers put suddenly into a very intimate relationship requiring a great deal of trust. our situation is similar. it will take a lot of time, a lot of consistency, and a whole lot of grace for this love to truly grow and for trust to develop and take deep root.
jamison has a dr. appt. with a cornea specialist in oct to determine if there is the possibility of any sight in his future. he has dr. appts. scheduled at the burn clinic, the plastic surgeon and needs some dental surgery. we are looking into his educational needs and trying to determine the best plan for him. let me tell you, this is a crash course into several new medical fields and educational fields. there is much for us to learn and decide. abba, give us wisdom!
elliott and holden started school yesterday, oliver and whitman start kindergarten tomorrow, leaving me, jamison, fisher, and baby sebastian (the little one i take care of) at home each afternoon. both fisher and baby seba will take a nap at the same time, giving jamison and i roughly two hours alone each day. i am counting on this time to be a time of quality bonding that we have not been able to experience so far. in my own heart, i am feeling much more settled and accepting of him in whatever manner he chooses to give himself to me...be it an angry, argumentative, hurting little boy, or a funny, thoughtful helper or anywhere in between.....i will take whatever i can get, and i will continue to pray for his heart and his healing.
